Can You Trust God With It? The Short Answer: Yes, Absolutely!

Sometimes it won’t look the way you thought it would.

Sometimes your heart will feel heavy with all the questions, the hurt, and the fear.

But, my friends, always remember who calls your name in those moments because He is the true source of all comfort and peace. Just read what happened to me yesterday…

If you watched the New Year’s video about my 3-Step Approach to Resolutions, you know about the “wish list”. There were several exciting things on mine this year. After watching the way that God poured through my 2022 wish list, I felt Him encouraging me with the same word all year: Bold. Be bold. And so, I prayed bolder prayers, I walked in bolder ways, and I made a bolder list for 2023.

But things don’t always look the way we think they will…

One of the items on my wishlist this year was a financial goal. It was a debt. A debt that I needed to find a way through. And I asked God to help me find the way. I had absolute confidence in His wisdom and His provisions and I gave it to Him that New Year’s Day.

The next day, literally January 2nd, we received crushing news that my truck would need repairs totaling $1200. Mind you, this came right after our dog had unexpected minor surgery for $700.

My mind was reeling and I felt the stress building. As I’m standing in the kitchen processing this news, I decide to head out to clear our driveway of the full day of snow dumping. And that’s when the pressure got the best of me.

About 10 minutes into the job, the tire just unexpectedly falls off the wheel of our snowblower and I’m left in a mess of tears.

How God? How? How can we move forward when it’s always backwards?

In that moment, I was talking about our financial goals, but I know that all of us can, and have, felt this way about many things in life… relationships, jobs, career paths, our calling, our dreams, our health… you name it! We give it to Him and then, from all appearances, it looks like the bottom just keeps falling out. But keep reading…

I grabbed our snow scoop and shovels and began the process of shoveling the driveway by hand. It was a very wet snow. If you’ve lived around snow, you know what that means. It was back-breaking heavy. The plow had left a solid berm at the end of my driveway that was at least 2 feet high and 5 feet deep. This was easily going to take hours! I was grumbling and churning in stress and fear, disappointment, and let’s just call it out… anger.

Then I heard His still, small voice whisper… “Can you trust me with this?”

“Yes, God, I can. But imagine what it looks like on this end!” (I laugh now as I remember my frustrated tone. You see, I’m very honest in my conversations with God because the truth is… He already knows what’s in my heart.)

And then the most incredible thing happened. No matter how many times God loves on me, I’ll simply never get used to it.

With the next scoop of snow, a perfect snow heart landed in my shovel. My eyes filled with tears. It was huge! I’m not joking. It was probably about two feet wide. I picked it up and yelled at my son in the backyard to come see it. I took a picture and texted my husband (who had been trying to encourage my heart for the past hour). And most notably, in that exact moment that it dropped into the scoop, I felt my heart begin to calm. And then, I felt His question press again.

“Can you trust me with this?”

My answer came out calmer this time. “Yes, God. Yes, I can.”

The tears poured as I picked up my shovel and began the work again. Poured because I realized that the God who provides is not just a provider… He really loves me. Even when I’m ugly, He stays. When I’m angry, when I’m frustrated, when I’m definitely not speaking from a grateful heart… He remains a steady flow of love and grace. And He wraps His arms around me and reminds me that I am His and He’s got me.

Even… when it doesn’t look the way that I thought it would. And, my beautiful friend, He will do the same for you.

BUT GUESS WHAT?! THAT’S NOT THE END OF MY STORY…

When I finished shoveling the driveway, I was talking to my husband about the repairs needed on the blower (more than just the tire) when it dawned on me that I had not looked at a work contract that I had been given but not yet paid (work that I have not fully completed)…

Incredibly (and unexpectedly) the amount would almost perfectly cover both my truck and the repairs needed on our snowblower.

He had faithfully provided months before the need arose.

Months before I even knew to ask!

Months!

Can you trust Him with it? Whatever “it” is?

Yes. You can.

I promise.

He doesn’t just provide.

He doesn’t just keep His promises.

He loves you… BIG.

And if you fear that you haven’t been “enough,” my friends, let me remind you: You are always MORE THAN ENOUGH to the One who loves you most!! No matter the road you’ve walked… He loves you BIG and He wants you to come home to Him and give Him your heart.

And if you need an extra boost today…

Take a listen to the song below. Join in. Close the door to your office, if needed. Sing it out loud. Right there in the middle of laundry or dishes. Let it feed your spirit today. Praise Him. In between the prayer and the answer, take a moment to give thanks and feel His promises. He is a good, good Father!